arghhh!

Don't know why I get soo upset about this stuff sometimes, technically I barely knew the girl although I guess after two months of emailing each other and finally meeting I guess I knew her fairly well...obviosuly not well enougth!

Most upsetting thing is, she never called.., I can see why in one way, shes made up her mind and talkign to me is only going to make that choice harder, but really it wouldn't of killed her either.

Maybe I was just looking for excuses not to go to England, and there wasn't really anything there to start with... don't know, but once again it's time to move on.

My friend Mariel has invited me around for drinks tonight, so atleast I can get out of the house and away from the computer hoping she might email or call. Think I'll feel a little better after a few wines and not re-reading her email 300 times!