Blog 2!

hmmm another night that I can't sleep, its about 3.30 am at the moment,
luckily I am on afternoon shift and can get away with a late night. I have so
much stuff running through me head at the moment it's no wonder I cant sleep.

I ve pretty much made up my mind that 25th August will be the date I leave
to England, it gives me time to sort things out here and hopefully work hard at
the gym and knock of a few kilos/pounds.

It's wierd trying to get into a frame of mind so I can date again, 5 years of not doing
anything like that, presuming your going to be with a certain person for the rest of
life makes it so hard. It's like going back to being 20 again, except I don't look like a
20 year old!? I think it's self confidence that's going to be the hardest thing, building
that back up is going to take a long time.

I need to get me teeth into something again, and I think that should be the gym, back
when I was 20 I was sooooo dedicated to keeping fit now after being in a few long term
relationships i ve slackened off that much...it needs to change.