arghhh!

Don't know why I get soo upset about this stuff sometimes, technically I barely knew the girl although I guess after two months of emailing each other and finally meeting I guess I knew her fairly well...obviosuly not well enougth!

Most upsetting thing is, she never called.., I can see why in one way, shes made up her mind and talkign to me is only going to make that choice harder, but really it wouldn't of killed her either.

Maybe I was just looking for excuses not to go to England, and there wasn't really anything there to start with... don't know, but once again it's time to move on.

My friend Mariel has invited me around for drinks tonight, so atleast I can get out of the house and away from the computer hoping she might email or call. Think I'll feel a little better after a few wines and not re-reading her email 300 times!

All's well that ends well?

Well got a "it's not you, it's me" type mail from Alison. Shame really there seemed to be some potential there. Don't think she's going to change her mind.

Well really that's the straw to break the camels back, London is calling!

Still need to get my passport sorted, my parents are being a pain about sending their marrige certiifcate.

Just need to sell both my cars and I am off!

Third date...

Well things went well on Tuesday night, has a nice dinner and drank and watched movies, all going very nicely...unfortunaly with Ali that could be a bad thing, the whole idea of having to put time aside for something else in her life seems to much.

Have barely been able to speak to her since, so still have no idea where this is going to go

Sunday

arhh the end of another two 12 hours shifts, and the start of a week off :) Had a great chat with Alison tonight and shes coming over on Tuesday, bringing dinner and wine with her :) Should be fun!

Planning on going go-karting on Friday, havn't done that in years (always get my arse kicked though!)

second date!

Well met Alison for the second time tonight. We went for a walk down at Brighton, then we played air hockey before going to the movies. Was a fun night, but very frustrating! Shes been making it pretty clear that she likes me but want's to take it realllly slooow. Which I can live with but makes me soo paranoied about what I can and can't get away with!

Still split on the England thing, need to see how things go, don't need to move till June so weither thats to a another rental place in Adelaide or a plane trip to England I am not sure.

Torn!

Well things are progressing smoothly with Alison (coffee girl) she hasn't run for the hills yet, so that's gotta be good. No idea what to do with myself now, have also been talking to a girl in london for the past month or so, who seems really sweet. He last email offered to take me out for my upcoming 30th (presuming I'll be in london by that stage)

Even if things go with with ALison I am still in a job I hate, and still stuck in Adelaide grrr

maybe this stuff does work?

Interesting night last night, met a girl I ve been talking to for the last two months via email. Found her on one of those personals sites, id pretty much given up on the whole idea as it seems any girl thats half way decent is being swamped by 10000 emails form 15 year olds to couples looking for a threesome.

Anyway after months of talking she decided to give me her number the other day, and we arranged to meet for a coffee...coffee ended up being 3 hours of talking and she seems interested in seeing me again....so maybe there is life at the end of the tunnel!

I am certainly not putting the overseas thing on hold just yet, but it could make things complicated

blogging along

Have been busy cleaning out my shed today, trying to get all my stuff down to a couple of suitcases, a little depressing really but needs to be done. What makes it worse is I keep finding sweet little notes from my ex, the one attached is the first note she ever sent me. Not sure what to do with this stuff, tempted to throw it away but feel I might regret that down the track argghhh! anyway One thing I wont miss about Australia is the spiders, woke up this morning looking at a huntsmen spider, he didnt last long with the surface spray.

Blog 2!

hmmm another night that I can't sleep, its about 3.30 am at the moment,
luckily I am on afternoon shift and can get away with a late night. I have so
much stuff running through me head at the moment it's no wonder I cant sleep.

I ve pretty much made up my mind that 25th August will be the date I leave
to England, it gives me time to sort things out here and hopefully work hard at
the gym and knock of a few kilos/pounds.

It's wierd trying to get into a frame of mind so I can date again, 5 years of not doing
anything like that, presuming your going to be with a certain person for the rest of
life makes it so hard. It's like going back to being 20 again, except I don't look like a
20 year old!? I think it's self confidence that's going to be the hardest thing, building
that back up is going to take a long time.

I need to get me teeth into something again, and I think that should be the gym, back
when I was 20 I was sooooo dedicated to keeping fit now after being in a few long term
relationships i ve slackened off that much...it needs to change.